I Loves You Nina! The Music of Nina Simone

I turn to Nina for inspiration.  Her music has stuck with me since I was a little girl who'd watch and sing along to My Baby Just Cares For Me.  Back then I thought a cat sung it.

Over the last couple of years, I've come to know more of her music.

Songs about the struggle for racial equality:

She also covered the classics:

I know it's impossible to choose a few songs to represent my love for Nina, this is just a sample of some of her wonderful music.

Maja Dezulovic

Marvin Gaye, Beyond the Grapevine

Marvin Gaye is one of my favourite musicians.  His music is brilliant and soulful. He is most well-known for songs like I Heard it Through the Grapevine, Let's Get it On, What's Going On, and Sexual Healing; but there is so much more.  Over the years I've explored his discography and come to discover my favourite tracks and albums.  That is what I'm sharing here.

During the 1960s, Marvin was a great influencer in shaping the sound of Motown Records.  Marvin was killed by his father in 1984, but the legacy lives on.

"'Cause music's been my therapy
Taking the pain from all my anatomy"

That's how I feel about music.

The first Marvin Gaye song I fell in love with was What's Going On.

"Mother, mother
Everybody thinks we're wrong
But who are they to judge us
simply 'cause our hair is long?
You know we've got to find a way
to bring some understanding here today...
Don't punish me with brutality,
talk to me so you can see
What's Going On..."

Other tracks from the What's Going On album:

Marvin and Tammi topped the charts.

Jazz and swing classics:

The album Here, My Dear tells the story of a relationship gone wrong (a dedication to his first wife Anna Gordy Gaye).

"Dear did you notice the snow started to fall?
Come let us sit a while
Just listen to the children laughing and running wild...
I knew all the time that I'd find the rhyme
Never have a fear,
Here it is, my dear."

It's Madness is one of my more recent discoveries.  The lyrics hit home as I was going through a depressive episode.

Life's Opera, along with It's Madness, were released on the Dream of a Lifetime posthumous album.

Another album I love is I Want You, but I can also say that I enjoyed every Marvin Gaye album that I've played over the years.  Some I repeat for weeks, sometimes months.

Maja Dezulovic

Winter is Coming

Winter is coming
for the forsaken,
forgotten souls of yesteryear.

Winter is coming
so everything can hide,
freeze over
before hell.

Winter is coming
so the blood red
can shine through the
icy white.

Winter is coming
and it foreshadows
the days of fuming heat,
and they too will come.

Winter is coming
and with it brings the days
of solitude
and closing ourselves up in tight corners
made endurable by hot coals.

Winter is coming.

Maja Dezulovic


Let's fly...
Until there's no more up to get to.

Let's fly
Beyond the abyss
and the fall into nothingness.

Until we're lighter for it.

Let's fly
Beyond the clouds
and the thunderstorms.


Maja Dezulovic

22 Lessons for the New Year

2011 was a pivotal year for me.  At the end of 2011, I wrote down lessons that I wanted to take with me into the new year.  It's five years later and I still look at them as a reminder so I thought I'd share them so that others can reflect on the lessons of the past year.

On love and human interaction:

1. You cannot really choose when and to whom you fall in love with. It just happens. Embrace it for what it is.
I fell in love this year. It was unplanned, intense and somewhat dramatic, but it was worth it.

2. Great friendships never die.
I reunited with two good friends who I hadn't seen nor spoken to for years. Meeting again almost felt like we had parted ways only the day before. Once you find your kindred spirits in this life and you endure life's tests, time and distance are no longer a barrier. Great friends will always be there with you. The connection never dies.

3. Choose love over fear. Always.
All emotions derive from these two basic feelings. The outcome of your behaviour is always determined by whether you acted in love or fear. I try to ask myself now and again: "Am I doing this out of love or fear?" Choose love.

4. Get to know yourself and stay true to who you are.
I spent four months living on my own. There were daily doses of laughter, crying and hysteria. Most of all, there were many questions and the answers came. I discovered my life's passions. I've realised that I am truly okay with myself. I don't mind being alone. I just choose not to be alone. After doing this, I discovered that many people don't afford themselves the same opportunity. They don't dive deep within themselves. I'm glad I did it.

5. People die.
I know this one is very obvious. You'd think I didn't know it before. In a way, I didn't. I knew it mentally but my heart had not fully realised it. I always knew that people die but somehow expected those closest to me to live forever. It doesn't work that way. ALL people die! I saw so many people die around me this year that I actually clicked. Cherish each moment. Take lots of photographs.

6. Take people as they are.
Nobody is out to get you or stand in your way. If you listen to gossip, you'll go crazy. If you look for the bad in people, you'll find it. I decided to discard all expectations of people this year. I realised that most people have a pure intent. They may not act on it in what you believe is the best way, but they don't really mean you any harm. An important lesson here is to just accept people for who and what they are. You may influence them but it is not your job to change them. Take the best from them and cherish that.

7. Smile.
A couple of years back, I decided to smile when I greet people. I try to do it with everyone I come across. I noticed some of the aftereffects this year. People who I had met only once, over a year ago, and interacted with very briefly, remembered me. I didn't have to smile first because they lit up when they saw me. I'm talking about complete strangers. It's so simple and yet so powerful. There's no telling how far a smile and genuine interest in another person can go.

On business:

8. It’s never about the money. It’s what you can do with the money.
Money simply does not motivate people. However, it does buy many things that do motivate us, such as survival (food and shelter), recreation and status. The most highly motivated people are not even in it for much more than survival. They have passion. With directed passion, we can do anything.

9. Everything worth doing is worth doing properly. It all takes hard work.
So, I thought to myself: I know my passions so how much more do I need? Work! For years, I was searching for the quickest route to success. Sloth being one of my weaknesses, I didn't expect it to require too much effort. I was very wrong. Passionate people work harder than anybody else because they have a firm belief in what they are striving to achieve. They also have fun working. Leave the paltry efforts to the government administrators who never really seem to help you because they hate what they do.

10. Do what you love.
There are many ways to make money - real estate, diversification, stock markets and so on. Many people do it because they have enough motivation from the things that those profits can buy them. I'm not one of those people. I need to enjoy the process as well as the outcome. The only way to achieve that is to have an unconditional love for your work.

On science and technology:

11. Modern telecommunications has a very valuable role in our society.
I spent two years working in the telecommunications industry but I didn't really fathom the many uses of modern devices and their potential until recently. When you're far away from the ones you love, software such as Skype allows you to talk to, see and interact with others in real time. That's the next best thing to seeing them in person. We've come far from letters, telegraphs, the Bell telephone and the first chat rooms. What's next? Teleporting?!

12. The purpose of science and technology is convenience. It frees up our time so we can have new experiences.
In our modern tech savvy world, we've become accustomed to taking our mobile devices everywhere we go. For some of us, especially business people and teenagers, our lives revolve around the information we share and get from our cellphones and laptops. It's more of a distraction when our attention to the real world fades and we become consumed by a virtual one. It often overwhelms us and takes up all our time. Let's not forget that the point of all this technology is to take care of the mundane everyday tasks so that we can spend more time developing ourselves.

On life in general:

13. Just give. GIVE.
That's all there is to it.

14. Words have the power to move people. Actions have the power to change people.
I wrote three poems this year that drove people to tears. That made me realise the power of words. People, nevertheless, tend to forget words. They serve a purpose and conjure up emotions for the moment but are forgotten afterwards if the lesson in them is not carried forth and acted upon. Words are memorable but nothing says it better than your conduct and behaviour.

15. Home is where the heart is. Follow your heart.
I've heard this one many times but I only understood it this year. Your heart doesn't belong to a physical place that you call your home. Instead, it is where your heart is, that you will be at home. When you are true to your heart's passions an desires, you are at peace and at home within yourself.

16. Everybody is bigger than they are.
We all have the potential to become something bigger and better than what we are right now.

17. The air by the seaside or ocean is cleaner than any other.
I spent three months by the seaside and chronic sinus problems I've been battling with for almost seven years virtually disappeared. It's not a myth and doctors were not crazy back in the day for sending patients to the sea to heal. The air by the shore is cleaner. Even living near a lake or river is beneficial.

18. FOCUS = Follow One Course Until Successful
Unless you are a true multi-tasker with limitless energy, you cannot focus on a million things. Rather focus on one task or objective at a time, complete it and then move on ahead. Otherwise, most of us are left pulling our hair out and facing a lot of unfinished business. Sound familiar? This is why some of the dead come back to haunt us.

19. In hospital, on tours and on airplanes, being a vegetarian rocks!
This one comes from gathered experience. I'm about to complete my third year as a vegetarian but I claimed to be one years before in those three places. I don't know why it is, but the vegetarian meals are almost always better than the others. I don't know if it's because it's cooked separately, but it is a pattern.

20. Heart and head are meant to work together as a unit.
Follow your heart, yes, but don't be stupid about it. Most of us have allowed logic and reason to dictate our lives. That's the opposite extreme. There's a reason we have both. The mind is there to follow and carry out the heart's instructions. Direct your passions, else you are likely to become the fool.

21. There is no “could’ve”, “should’ve”, “would’ve”. There is only NOW.
Forget regrets. It's over. Move on and start a better "now".

22. Listen to the advice of others, but do it your way.
Everybody has a good dose of advice they want to dish out to others. Mostly, it is justified and they raise good points. Listen and let it help you, but follow your own intuition. We're all different and so are our paths. The world is in constant change. Something that was valid yesterday may not necessarily be valid today. Most of the advice people give is the advice they wish they could have given to themselves at some stage. You are not them nor are you pre-destined to make the same mistakes. Listen, but sing your own song.

Maja Dezulovic